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Affirmed By, 2013, LZ

Affirmed By, 2013, LZ

Sleepy now

Sleepy now

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I did a really bad thing. It was night time. I was unhappy with...

I did a really bad thing. It was night time. I was unhappy with a painting. I painted over and over it and it DIED. 

So now I am painting two new works. Here's one getting started. Why.

Making a series of these.

Making a series of these.

If you label something as art, does it become art?

3am thoughts.

"But all too often, people do not choose life, they do not accept the "Gospel of Life" but let..."

"But all too often, people do not choose life, they do not accept the "Gospel of Life" but let themselves be led by ideologies and ways of thinking that block life, that do not respect life, because they are dictated by selfishness, self-interest, profit, power and pleasure, and not by love, by concern for the good of others. It is the eternal dream of wanting to build the city of man without God, without God's life and love – a new Tower of Babel. It is the idea that rejecting God, the message of Christ, the Gospel of Life, will somehow lead to freedom, to complete human fulfilment. As a result, the Living God is replaced by fleeting human idols which offer the intoxication of a flash of freedom, but in the end bring new forms of slavery and death"

- Pope Francis
Homily at Evangelium Vitae Day
6/16/13 (via thelitany)

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This haunts me. Maybe because a part of me still believes it to be truth. Yet, I sit here doing nothing. Nor now.

Working on this atm. Nothing new.

Working on this atm. Nothing new.

All the denying. But really, how can one separate there art from there lives? We can try, we can be...

All the denying. But really, how can one separate there art from there lives? We can try, we can be ignorant of it. We can disguise it as an investigation of the medium but what fuels it? I do not feel comfortable with giving all my being for what would that expose of me, ready for the world to ridicule? Can I make explosive art while living under a pebble? No, I cannot. And if that means going to hell, then so be it.

These thoughts hover in my mind as I hover on earth. Earth, a limbo between heaven and hell. An uncomfortable state.

What saddens me is my upbringing and my twisted mind has produced an irrational rational fear of hell. I do not wish to flee from it. But I do not wish to go to hell either. The choice is made for me.

Limbo.

ncftnw: "Although it seems admirable that people should seek to increase their knowledge of the...

ncftnw:

"Although it seems admirable that people should seek to increase their knowledge of the world through whatever means happen to be available, the price can be too high for certain means.
Certain mediums may actually be taking more from us than they are giving."

Sneaking bit of sketching during my LAST DAY AT WORK. Yup.

Sneaking bit of sketching during my LAST DAY AT WORK. Yup.

It Never Changes To Stop - The Books

It Never Changes To Stop - The Books

Excluding the grey, I'm about done!

Excluding the grey, I'm about done!

Mmm…

Mmm…

Err.

Err.

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Is actually Fluro yellow ;)

Is actually Fluro yellow ;)

Cannot sleep but so so tired. There is too much to read and see and consume and learn and wonder. I struggle with this every night. It keeps me awake. I become so physically tired and mentally overwhelmed by all this information yet to be accessed. I'm greedy for it. But I'm tired. Then, I forget everything. But it still keeps me awake.

Joining ga-gillion other artists/poets/creativists concerned with the in between or the 'grey-area(s)'.